5 songs and the big finish

Long story short, that's all folks!
All the worry, angst, expectations turn to nothing.

What do i feel?

Just an odd sense of sadness. Maybe when you've tried it more than once in a year, you get used to it. And a further sense of emptiness with a 11-day holiday looming infront of you, with no work to keep you distracted. And to add on... quietly passing my 26-year old birthday in the midst

Do I regret any of this?
Looks like I'm a sucker for pain and that I don't make good decisions but no. Nothing beats not trying. It's just so ironic that the first time, just 24hrs ago, we started taking steps, led us to the end.

I'm still reflecting on what I've learnt from all of this.
All I know is, I have to pursue being HAPPY.

It's the only thing I seem to be sure of and which I do so well, only if to amuse and please myself.

the silence of a conference call

I've always been one to find solace and peace in the midst of noise.
Growing up, studying at coffee joints, blasting hip-hop / clubbing noise was the only way to drown out my easily-distracted mind (and keep me awake).
Anything too peaceful, calming usually puts me to sleep most efficiently

And today, with the sounds of the conference call (that is still ongoing for 2.5hrs now) in the background, i found it an oddly fitting time to take stock of my life so far...