i cause you grief, i hope i gave you joy too

comparisons are such scary things to do.
its like a dark hole, that draws you in when things aren't going well.
why couldn't this be like that, why couldn't you be like that, why do i have to be like that.

I've come to learn that I've been spoiled.
Like a spoiled child, I was handled with velvet gloves and I never had to come to terms with reality. I always assumed the world was that way and I'm coming to realize how much it must have taken. i could always want more, and get more, without giving more.

so thank you.

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“I really did love you,”
“I know, But I still love you. I miss you.

“So miss me. Send me love and light every time you think about me, then drop it.

--- Eat. Pray. Love